Caution: whining and crying about to commence!!!
Oh, woe is me! You know the saying, "when it rains, it pours!", well, let me tell you.... it's coming down like cats & dogs, and we haven't even had a taste of Earl yet!
There are so many things going awry right now, I just want to curl up in a ball, go to sleep, and wake up in about a month.
Why does everything seem to happen at once? I wouldn't mind at all if there were only one event / mishap / stress-inducing episode , what-have-you every 3 months or so. But sometimes it just seems to go on and on and on.....
And just when you think, "there... I think I can see the light at the end of the tunnel!" WHAMO! Something else comes along.
I was supposed to take my car in to get serviced (for the second time this month) because something wonky is happening with it. It doesn't happen every time, mind you.... just at the most inconvenient. All of a sudden, the horn starts honking (one long blast, not an intermittent honk-honk-honk... like when the alarm is going off), then the windshield wipers start flapping - front and back, wiper fluid starts spewing out in all directions, the locks engage, and I can't do anything about it! So the first time I took it in, they said "no problem... there's probably a glitch in the computer system." And sure enough, that was the bottom line. There were also some upgrades to the system that needed to be installed. Fine and dandy. Done.
However, since I've had it home for a week and a half, the same old same old has happened again... twice! So my husband made an appointment for me to bring it in again this morning. Well, as we were leaving... him to go to work, me to go to the dealer... I went to start the car and.... NOTHING! It wouldn't start! Something engaged, because we could hear it click. The dashboard lights all came on, the radio came on, but the engine sadly, did not. So I am now waiting for a tow truck to arrive to take the car to the dealer for me, and we'll see what happens.
It's just so frustrating! We are a one car family, and thank the heavens above that my husband has use of a company vehicle (a funeral van - don't get all creeped out... it looks just like a mini-van) to go back and forth to work.
I really don't have the money to invest in a new car. I drive a Chrysler Town & Country mini-van that is only 3 years old, not even 30K miles on it.
I am so broke, if my checkbook and I were on a diet together, my checkbook is SO winning... it's in the negative! It just keeps losing and losing and losing!
Last year I started a business that went under, and I am still paying off HUGE amounts of debt. I will be paying it off until I'm about a hundred and eight years old.
I have put in job applications to every stinkin' store within a twenty mile radius and have not had one call back! :(
In July I took a civil service exam, and scored a 90 which I thought wasn't too bad. But I have yet to receive one canvass letter! I called the county government center to make sure I was on the list, and the lady said, "Oh yes, you're on the list, but you have to realize that there were people who scored 95 or better. So they will receive any canvasses first, and if they decline, then the list moves on. Also, right now it is very slim pickin's." UGH! Here I thought, "woohoo... a 90.. not bad!" Yeah right.
So, I totally do not want to jinx myself by mentioning it, but I DO have a job interview on Friday! It is to work in the Village Hall as a clerk. I have my fingers, toes, and teeth crossed that it will work out. It's only a part-time position, but it pays very well, and would certainly be a big help to the situation I'm in, and find keeps getting worse! :(
And, of course the kids will start school tomorrow which adds a whole different level of stress.... homework, papers, deadlines, signatures, conferences..... BLAGH!
That I don't really mind so much. That is a controllable type of stress. It's just chaotic. No big deal. I actually like all the hubbub that comes with a new school year!
Money, bills, payments... THAT is the type of stress I can't stand! For all the people that say money can't buy happiness.... that's true, it can't. However, having a little bit here and there sure does help ease the tension some!
It's such a dirty little secret, and I can't help but feel ashamed of myself. :(
Well, the towtruck just left with my car hoisted up on the back of it. Who knows when I'll see it again! Hopefully before Friday when I have to go for a job interview!
Anyway, I'm done ranting now. Sorry to have gone off on a tangent, but it feels good to vent.
I think I'll go make a cup of tea and try to relax. You know that old commercial: "Calgon, take me away!"? If you listen close, you'll be able to hear me chanting it all day long.... Calgon, take me away! Calgon, take me away!